December
I remember, all the way back in december
When things started going down
You said that you loved me the week before,
And now I think you don’t anymore
I remember the day
When you let it all go
And you dropped the best thing that you’ve ever known
All because she made you drop my hand with a pissed off tone
Did you really feel like you had to?
Was there something that I could do,
I really wish to know,
To bring you right back to me?
I remember the pain
You installed in me
A virus that almost
Cleaned my slate
And I almost rode down the cliff
Until I found a road to pull up to instead
I remember the healing
And drainage and stitches
That mended me from the pain of that night
It took me a while
To get me to smile
Until I found the right places to go to
Even though I had swore off of you
I asked people how you’d been
And wished desperately to see pictures
I should have kept every scrap I had of you,
If I had known there was a chance
My wishing penny would make it true
I remember the days
When I longed for you the most
But I thought you didn’t need me anymore
So I waited like a toy from your childhood
You forgotten and thought you didn’t need
Until the day you did
I remember the dream I had
Of envisioning what could have been
If I sucked it up and said something sooner
And the things we could have done
Then I woke up crying
With an assignment to complete
To try to fix it all
I remember us running around the football field
A couple days after we started again
And I looked at you
Like a star in the sky
That shines brighter than the rest
And I don’t think my friends
Have seen me this happy
In a long time
I hope my favorite person is proud of me
For giving you all I’ve got
And I’m proud of you
For cutting that her off
And finding yourself again
It feels like nothings changed
Except that your the tall one now
And we realized the mistakes of the past
But deep down I know it’s still you
And that I’m still me
So don’t blame me
If I stare into your blue-green eyes
Cause it’s the last thing reminding me of what used to be